loneliness...part 2

assalamualaikum n peace be upon you
seems like a month i didn't wrote anything in this wall
as i'm feeling so now to write something..my hand already has written a few word
from previous loneliness post
it seems that lonely is really grateful gift from almighty Allah
because from the loneliness itself
we gain our strength...so be grateful when we feel grateful
sometimes we also think...why would we be so lonely as in this world we are not living alone
but why we choose to be alone
because it is human being does...
sometimes we feel better when we feel alone
sometimes it is really stressfull..
n even worse we will feel like giving up life when we are alone
this is what god (Allah in context of islam) want us to learn..that we cannot live by just ourselves
this also the sign from god that we have Him to be conducted..
for those who didn't believe in god..i'm feel really sorry of you..
hope that you will learn it someday that we need someone or even something else...
and also we cannot even live if we are really lonely
because as in islam...god have promised that...we as human are very weak
because we are just one of His creation...but when we forget it..we feel that we are the best
believe me..i can bet..without friends,without followers,or even without family
we are nothing..it is a big lie if we say that we are everything
so..from my point of view..the only thing that human fear is not danger things or even weapon
but loneliness...because when we are alone..we will feel a lot of emptiness in our life
that is why when god create Adam..He create Eve(Hawa)..to make sure that we really feel grateful to our life
n for them who didn't believe in god and saying that Darwinian theory is true
it's okay but think again
why would animal also being created in couples..which i mean as human is from ape family
and genetically if the species itself means that a new species is established when they can reproduce by each other
and even genetic coding is made in couples by itself...
this shows how a single molecule cannot interact without partner
as when they are alone they are useless...

this is what we called sunnatullah or in english the law of Allah(god)
and now..we started to deny it...we start to ruin other life and makes other life filled with emptiness...lonely...
what has happened to this world..
we started to being selfish..not realising that we are weak creature
we started to ignored other to make sure that our life is better in the future
remember my friend...human cannot live alone
so be sure that we are not destroying others life and start to respect the other
if not..try to be alone for some time in our busy life
and feel how grateful we are when god create human other than us
and even how grateful we are when god makes us different from each other(especially races)
cause from this...we can see the true meaning of life...
may peace be upon you:)
and for my family and friends..thanks for being a part of my life...Alhamdulillah

hidup ini tiada siapa yang sempurna

assalamualaikum warahmatullahiwabarakatuh
terase teringin pula menulis dalam bahasa melayu
setelah sekian lame x menulis blog ni..bukan nye ape..cume xtau nk tulis mcm mane
blog ni semakin kurang yg membace..mungkin sebab msg keamanan,maka xde sape yg nk dengar
sy pun da mule tulis blog yg simple dan menyeronokkan..tp still xde org nk tgk
xpe la..setiap perjuangan memulakan waktu untuk mendapat perhatian
saya ade la terbace beberapa buah blog yg memaparkan persepsi ketidakyakinan terhadap jantina yg berlainan
sama ade lelaki terhadap perempuan atau perempuan terhadap lelaki
perkara ini seperti biasa la dalam kehidupan harian kita
x byk yg saya nk ulaskan terhadap perkara ini..tp oleh sbb sy rase perlu maka sy harap dgn sedikit ilmu ini dapat kite memahami kaum lain jantina dgn lebih dekat
lelaki dan perempuan dijadikan berbeza antara satu sama lain
secara ringkasnya..apa yang ada pada lelaki kebanyakan nya tiada pada perempuan
begitu juga yang sebaliknya..dalam berkawan banyak yg kita kene faham mengenai mereka
jgn expect yg berlainan jantina dapat faham diri kita dengan sepenuhnya
so terjadi la pelbagai perkara antara perhubungan ini
antaranya..uji menguji antara satu sama lain
pergaduhan perkara kecil yg boleh berlarutan sehingga ke anak cucu
begitu juga ketidakpercayaan ke atas kaum bertentangan jantina atas sebab perkara buruk yg berlaku antara kawan-kawan
perkara ini banyak berlaku sehingga terjadi apa yg dikatakan gender identity disorder
dan seterusnye membawa kepada hubungan luar tabii sesama sejenis
terutama dalam masyarakat moden yg lebih selesa berhubung dengan teknologi berbanding berhadapan dengan antara satu sama lain
seperti post2 sy sblm ini
manusia ini sebenarnya amat mudah merasa kesunyian
so..kat sini sy mahu mengaitkan dengan tajuk sebelum ini
perkara ini terjadi kerana setiap antara kita sering merasa kesunyian
terutama apabila kita merasa bahawa orang yang kita percaya mengkhianati kita
atau dalam erti kata lain membuat sesuatu yg di luar jangkaan kita
dalam hal ini..kita harus la rasional
jangan terus membuat kesimpulan
kerna hakikat nya Allah sentiasa meletakkan hikmah disebalik apa yang terjadi
terutama hikmah betapa kita memerlukan insan yg bertentangan jantina dengan kita
sbb kita memerlukan mereka maka kita membenci mereka
mudah dan jelas hakikat yang ditunjukkan olehNya..
oleh itu fikir2kan lah...mungkin apa yang berlaku di sekeliling kita menyebabkan kita lebih memahami tujuan kita dijadikan seperti apa yg kita sekarang
wallahualam

loneliness part 1

assalamualaikum and may peace be upon you
it has been a while i've never wrote anything in this wall...
now,i'm going to continue my previous writing about 'kesepian'
as i've explained why i want to write in english..so i should write this in english
loneliness is something that human being will always encounter in their life
and because of loneliness..we started to make terrible mistakes..
we started to blame other people on anything wrong happen to us
we even blame ourselves on being so dumb bout life
but is it true that we really are lonely as we think so

for me....it is just something that only bothering us human being
loneliness is actually should be great
loneliness makes us happy as we think about people who happened to be in our life
feeling lonely makes us love each other more
by feeling lonely..we tried hard to be more cheerful..
why it must be so complicated
who are we to claim that we are really lonely
as when we alone....................


we started to think about the one that we love
is it really lonely if we still have person to think of
people cannot leave by himself..
that is why they live together..
because...when we are alone
we will feel grateful...that we had memory of being together


in term of peace
how come we have never realised
how wonderful god creation
He create..a lot of races...
so that we can feel wonderful in His world
how if He just make one race
that will only make us feeling empty
He makes a lot of races of people
so that we can learn to accept each other....
i wonder if He just create only this particular group of people
how bored it will be...
n this also we called...
loneliness......

(next post of loneliness describing bout how important tolerate in our beautiful world)

out of my own world

it almost a month since the last post
don't know what happened to me
seems like my head is jammed with everything which i cannot write a single piece of sentence
hope this time it going trough this whole post like a stream of water in the river



lately we all know bout what happened in gaza strip
everybody seems don't want to be responsible to that terrorism
either the zionist or hamas do not want to admit any of their mistake in that conflict
what had happened to this world
god have given a very peaceful planet that have all the things that we need to fulfilled
why are we becoming so greedy and let our lovely world into a fearful world
then it goes to religion
now people start to blame the god because of this chaos
for all who are atheist,surely they will manipulate this point
then who are a strong believer started to say that only them who are the god choose
why this all need to be happened
we all know that god know better than us
a mere human being that is so weak
but then why don't we admit the reality
i hope to all people in this world to understand that we are just a weak creature
anytime god will take our life
especially to those who are called leader
you are the leader and there is no way in this world to stop this conflict other than you being so justified
then now i see many people to judge god doing
we don't even realised that all these are our weak hand doing
feeling so big,human don't ever realised that this weak hand had done a lot of sins
just love to blame the others (even our faithful god) on what you have done
then run away from the truth
and the try to show lies to all people in this world that lie is the truth
stop thinking like a stupid
in whatever happened in the world...
don't think that people that follow you(who are the leader) stupid
they know the truth what are you hiding for
and then you start to confused them
what is this all about
for god sake
this all just make world(specifically earth)
becoming worst and worst
we don't want the third world war happened
just like the previous world war that happened because of human greed(that also not admit by you people)
why this must be happened
world should be in peace
simple word i want to say
why don't we literally think that earth is crying because of what we have done to it
we slice it..we broke it..we sabotage it
and then we don't ever feel guilty to the earth
still want to be buried in the soil that we have done sins
and the worst part is..we think that the terrible things that we have done is the most prideful
shame on you to filthy liar..
there is no way the earth will accept you


whatever happened...may peace be upon you
hope world would more peaceful..ameen

kesepian

hmm..sblm memulakan post ni just nk gtau la especially kawan2 nape diri ini banyak menulis dlm bahasa inggeris berbanding bahasa ibunda tercinta.bagi yang mengenali mmg aku adalah bota...
idup dalam keserabutan dan kesepian..alhamdulillah atas bantuan Yang Maha Esa Dia mengurniakan aku para sahabat yang banyak membantu di kala aku keseorangan..buat sahabat2 di Sekolah Datuk Abdul Razak...memang korang dilahirkan sebagai lelaki tetapi seperti ape yang orang salu cakap 'orang yang mengetahui perempuan adalah perempuan itu sendiri' (no offense)..begitu jua lelaki..(adeyh jiwang la plak..sogan den ngan kengkawan den hehe)
disebabkan korang sume la aku mule menggunakan nama peacemaker mule dari skolah lagi...dengan harapan aku akan berubah menjadi insan yang lebih baek pada masa hadapan...
lepas sekolah aku masuk khidmat negara..mule berkenalan dengan dunia luar...
waktu tu aku kenal jugak ngan ramai ngan kawan2 yg hidup mereka x sebaek mane..lebih kurang naseb macam aku...malah ade yg lebih sedih...
btul kata nenek aku.."aid..ekau kono ingat..susah2 hidup kau ado laie yang lobih susah,bersyukur la"
alhamdulillah..dari situ aku mula faham betapa besar nye hikmah Allah mengambil balik apa yang Dia sudah pinjamkan aku sejak aku lahir dahulu...
dan perjalanan untuk lebih mendekati Nya mule menguatkan lagi hati ini
khidmat negara memberi aku berjuta keinsafan...bagaimana aku bergaul dengan pelbagai kaum
rakan2 pelbagai latar belakang..kaki rempit,kaki perempuan,rakan2 tabligh dan pelbagai lagi..
alhamdulillah banyak pegajaran yang aku ambil...
memang benar kata hatiku sejak sekian lama yang memendam hasrat untuk menyetai program itu
kemudian aku masuk INTEC..maybe kebanyakan yang bace ni dari INTEC jugak
so kat cni..life seperti di SDAR..kwn2 ak adalah di kalangan yang pandai2..yang sah2 aku x mau masuk campur kehidupan
sebabnye aku pun sendri xtau..tapi masih ade yang lebih kurang naseb aku
kat cni jugak aku dikenalkan dengan seorang insan yang amat tabah menghadapi hidup
terima kasih abg Hardi sebab mengenalkan aku dengan insan yang bernama GURU
dan di sini juga la aku kehilangan seorang insan yang bernama GURU(tanggal 26 jun..10 hari selepas tarikh pemergian insan2 yg paling aku sayangi selepas 4 tahun)
insan yang selama ini banyak membawa ketengan dalam hidupku..
dengan aku kenal mereka semua...hidup ini menjadi sangat bererti....
dan di sini lah aku mengenali blog...blog banyak memberi info...blog juga la banyak memecah belahkan silaturrahim(wallahualam)
maka dengan semangat berkobar2..aku mengukuhkan tekad dalam hati ini membina blog yang bisa menyatukan umat manusia di seluruh dunia ini
mungkin harapan hanya tinggal harapan
x ramai yang melawat blog ini..xpe..aku akan terus bersabar...
perjuangan zaaba dulu pun bukan setakat sehari dua
dengan semangat ini aku menulis dalam bahasa inggeris..di mana mmg x hebat pon..mungkin banyak kot salah hehe
cukup dengan tujuan itu..skarang ke tajuk sebenar plak...kesepian.........


sambung lenkali la ek hehe..this is just my intro for topic 'kesepian'

tired.....

lately everythings come to be so tiring...a lot of test i got trough and with all the thaks to the only almighty Allah..i got trough them all as i wanted to..hopefully after this all that i need to go trough come smoothly.then,i started to realised...
it is not just me being tired
and is not just working or studying make me tired..this tiredness is all about what we are all thinking or in islam they called it nafs..that always make us tired of continuing our own objective in this world that is always
'finding ourselves'
every time we try to make things correct..every single challanges come to us to make sure we give up without we thought of fighting it back....
life is always simple but we people always make its trouble...and also make it double
we know that we can achieve our goal but we never try again i emphashized 'try' to fight for it or even to adapt into it
we always making excuse without having though reason on what we are doing
as for me....i hope that i would always realized that i was not going to be this type of bored people
maybe this time my post is a little bit religous..but think again my valuable viewers...without religous in this world..what else we will have faith for
without god without holy book...what else can guide us from terrible life that everybody don't ever want to have.....
without them...life would always be tiring...and a mess.....
love,peace,happiness...etc...is what we always want to have
but we always forgot that..without our love to the Creator of love...how would we have the chance to have even a glance on love that we always dream of....
think smart think broad....peace be upon you

life...

is it true????hope so hehehe
most popular question that i think everyone of you had always encounter is "how's life?"
then,we shall share a lot of stories with those who asking...but then some of the really hate this question and even ask not to border his life...
that's reality is..just a simple question to show how concern a human are to their human friend
and sometimes we don't even realised how important that question especially if we by ourselves asking about our own life....
this what we called muhasabbah or in other word being realistic to ourselves how bad are we
so this is some answer or can say metaphor to our live

like a single road...full of mess but yet wonderful...interesting and comfortable..the life that i'm sure everybody have experience...if not may be it would be like the following

another empty road that only few people want to go...with full of sorrow..but remember my friends..how hard life is..there is always hope...like the shiny sky at the end....where lies hope and everything we need......

but yet hope it would not be like this...deserted...where nobody even want to have(but there is also people who have this type of life)

the best is always with a lot of experience and knowledge...and last but not least
when we have all these..the only things that always makes our life better is always....

friends......

my life in moscow

lately always write bout making peace in our live
i thought of writing bout myself in this world
hope whoever that drop by in this page know who am i
now i live in moscow
as on of the students in moscow medical academy
for sure taking medicine and will be a doctor one day(may Allah bless)
live in moscow(first ranking as world most expensive city to live) life is quiet hard here
especially when i need to travel 20km everyday to go to class
and also hardly have contact with seniors to get information as we live far from each other
only patience that give me courage to study harder here
now it already started winter
for me winter do need a lot of patience
first time being in winter(as in malaysia no 4 seasons at all)
have make me feel that how small am i compared to the power of The Creator
here i really realised how wonderful chosen as a human to live in this world by Him
a small creature like us can survive in a very extreme temperature that surely other creature can't
i'm really grateful being in moscow
it's really teach us to be a very good human being
live in a very alienated place makes us really want to give up
however...He is always be with us
so never give up and pray always to make sure that in this live we would never regret

perfection

nowadays...everythings seems to be harder and complicated
may be because of human beings like us seeking for perfect things in the world
but the truth is that human beings like us are barely have a chance to get everythings perfectly
esp for those who really understand religion
there is no way in this world can make us perfect even though we have tried troughout our live
sometimes we will feel disappointed when we could not get what that we really try to get
but believe me
the only perfect time in this world is that when we try and fail but we not straightly stop on achieving it
keep on our motivation
few days before
few teribble things had happened
and all of them makes me want to give up
however go (Allah for Muslim) would not let me being give up just like that
so He boost my spirit just by giving some concern and love from my family
where few days after incident
one of my family member called me and give me a little bit of motivation
believe me my dear friends...
life would never be perfect without love
and love would never occured if we do not believe on the Creator of love itself-peace-

mengape???

sejakl tibe di rusia ade satu perkara yg sentiasa bermain di benak fikiran ini.xde la ape sgt pon.just plek nape ramai student malaysia yg berkahwin sedangkan belum habis belajar.byk2 kemungkinan satu je yg mungkin mejadi yg pling tepat.bg saye mudah je.bende ni jadi sebab jarak cinta yg dekat.meaning...duduk berhampiran so bagi mengelakkan sesuatu berlaku maka dipercepatkan tempoh perkenalan kepada perkahwinan.nape jd cmni ek....still x dpt dirungkaikan persoalan.mengikut satu riwayat rasulullah ade berkata...apabila dua insan berdua2an di suatu tempat yang sunyi maka datang lah seorang lagi yakni syaitan laknatullah melalaikan mereka...nape jadi begini.sy pon x tahu.mgkn sebab nafsu menjadi teman baek.everything happens in this world got to have reason together with it...laki pempuan...adek abang...mak anak...begitu la jugak perkare ni.hmm...cube bayangkan yg jarak percintaannye jauh...mgkn perkare2 ni berlaku.mungkin jugak akan berlaku...sebab kunun nye memendam rindu yang sudah lame x dilepaskan.peduli apa rindu...apabila maruah sudah tergadai ape akn jadi pade hidup...there is no peace in our life.ade jugak berborak nggan bbrp kawan yg sudah serik bercinta..katenye susah.sume pon nak kene jage...makan, minum, even x msg pon akan dicurigai...sbnrnye perkare ni mudah je bagi yg memahami erti kehidupan dan keamanan hidup ini.lg mudah bg yg memahami hukum Yang Esa tetapkan.kita masih dibelenggu nafsu.bagi perempuan...jeles itu perkare biase.bagi lelaki pula,sensitviti yg x tentu hala.perkara ni perlu diselesaikan.ramai x faham kenape mereka berpacaran.ade jugak yg x faham kenape cinta itu timbul.selepas wat sedikit kajian dr kalangan sedare mare n sahabat handai..sy merungkaikan..love is not just emotion..it comes together with commitment.bg yg sedang n pernah bercinta...mereka faham.smpi ade yg ckp blum cukup mase lg untuk kte bercinta.actually even in the early age of your life you can have your own spouse.because the main thing is how you handle your own relationship.kalo kte faham nape kite mahu punyai pasangan...insyaAllah x jadi perkare2 di atas. like my previous post...love would never ends...love is not just giving the full commitment but to understand deeply what are the main reasons u r there to have each other....please...do mantain the peace.don't let just a simple problem we ruins all what have already we have-peace-

difference between imagination and reality

lately feel really lazy to write in english.so i'm using malay language to write my post hehe.
baru2 ni masak2 di rusia.sng citer masak 4 our own room members la.ape yg jelas di sini bese je msti ade org komen masakan.kurang tu la kurang ni la.hakikat nye...kalo nak cukup n menepati citerase sume banyak yg x dapat dipenuhi.gitu jugak.segale ape yg kite bygkan waktu sblm masak x dapat dipenuhi esp in russia yg jauh gler beze ngan brgn masakan di msia.so kat cni, as a peacemaker wanna be.i think all of us hould think about do the solving problem and not just speak what you should do.tp tu la masalah kte as a weak human being.sprt x leh dipisah kan.begitu la jugak hidup ini.when we say to a leader you should do that and this.somehow we just put the blame on other people without doing anything to make it easier.ape yg tertera di atas hanyalah satu contoh.plg mudah seperti memasak la kan.kite boleh cakap itu ini but the results when we do it not as we expected.there goes what we always saying expect the unexpected.n what the best part is that failure is also part of unexpected.what can i say is,life is not as simple as we always tought so we shouldn't take small things for granted.peace for all

life must go on

lately a lot of ridiculous things had happened.n those things are really important n i was so careless to handle it out.however everything have to be setteled n at last it have comfort me up.thanks esp for my family for the support.now i'm in moscow.in one of the recognised study place around the world (they said second ranking of medicine school..i dunno really bout this) with the (might be) the hardest subject that not every single person can imagine to take it.n the most expensive city to leave in the world.whatever....as i know.as a single person in ummah called muslim that faith is Allah is everythig.we have to leave everything (i mean tawakkaltualallah..still have to work on it).now the journey begins.leave in a very unfamiliar area.i need to be brave.also have a lot of friens n relatives studying overseas.some really can cope it.some still wanna be just the same back in msia.but the most ruins are those who has been assimilated completely in the breaking society.whatever...again n again we will say whatever.for me as muslim we need to concern our brotherhoods live.if not the ummah will break off easily.as i said before in my previous post...really outdated hehe...bout love.this is how we develop our love to muslim.i'm might not seen like a real muslim from outsides,but sorry to said.who care about this so called attire(i will comment about this in other post...i promise).k back to main topic.why i say ummah are really important esp when u are alone in the very unfamiliarise country.this is because,without strong ummah we can't survive completely.we have to know where we can find halal food.we can no where the masjid is.n even we can know how to practise islam in a country that there is so small muslims in it.n what i want to express here is how beautiful islam ask us to make friends with each other.this is because, without friends,life must be so bored.n reality is without friends who really care.we cannot survive completely in alienated place.make friends n say no to war-peace-

lova would never end

love..........
kinda very theoretical but not practical
we can say we love someone but it is hard to express our love
esp when we first met someone that we really care
the person who we think the best to be our life partner
or even who would ruin our life with a single word
sometimes we are really hoping that the who we know now would be the one who would love us till the end of our life
n be besides us when we r dying
but to find that kind of lover is really hard and need lot of determination n even commitment
people around the world now are thinking the same about love
no matter u r asian, english, mexican, irish, arab,...black or white...or even different religion
would think that why would no one gives love to me as much as i need
love..........
a really complicated experience
to be love and to love somebody
is totally different
love.........
it is just a liar if someone would say that "i don't need love"
deep in your heart would say that i'm a big liar
hmm...
sometimes it would be true
coz we completely think that love is only just for that only one person
if we think like that
such a big mistake
coz love is not just for that particular person
coz love is mean to all person in our life
not just for the beloved one
coz that is the most unforgettable feelings that we would have
the love that would never end...........

normal

What does it mean by normal...?

Hmm...many things...

Some would say that normal is just like something that everyone has...

Something that everyone do and even things or attitude that everyone own...

For me being normal is something that we might have to avoid...

I’m not telling ya'll that we need to be an abnormal people but what we need to be just more than normal...

On the other word...being extraordinary...

This is a kind of self motivation that need to be applied in our life in order to gain better life on the future...

Sometimes we think that we couldn't do it...

We can't even stick to any rules...

We can't even manage to face challenges...

Remember that those people that thinking like that is coward...

I don't blame anyone who does that...

Just as a reminder to all of you and myself especially...

In this world...we need to face and challenges any obstacle that come...

hmm...

hi don't know what to say. i'd never create any post since the last time...so i love to do it now..i love to talk about my life in INTEC..it has been about 8 months i'm here and a lot of new knowledge new friends that i'd learn and met...time is running so fast...about a year to go and then i'll left INTEC..hopefully that i will achieve my target and will work hard on it...life in INTEC is not just like i was in secondary school (SDAR). Even though living in hostel is just like former school but a lot of things that i need to run trough...i need to wake very early in the morning to catch for the bus...i need to study by my ownself as there's no preparation class here...i also join silat here (also be a commitee member) and al;so be one of the representative for my collegue...it's quite tired...i need to manage my time perfectly...thanks to Allah that He had given me power to run trough all these problem...it is quite challenging joining any cocuricullar activities...everything need to be done by ourselves..but it is very enjoyable even though lot of problem coming...just take the challange...hehe...i think that all...

The River Concerto

In andante tempo,
Slowly move following the flow,
Sound peacefully,
When crush with rocks,
Nice lovely song follows the tempo.

Slowly,
A humming bird singing following the song,
With harmonic,
Another humming bird joins in dynamic,
Then,
Seems drop of water join the orchestra of nature,
With precisely mood,
Feel the purity of music.

Quack, quack, quack,
Cute group of duck swim happily,
With full of joy,
They follow the concerto,
Some swim deep and then jump out from the river,
Splashing sound make the music lively,
Couple of bee then flies merrily,
Supporting the fascinating rhythm of the river,

Far from there,
With full of enthusiasm,
In marching pace,
Woodpecker continues the multisound of nature,
With joyfulness the concerto go on,
Lovely nice concerto,
The river concerto.

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